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Okay… the Play button on our relationship has been hit again, but before we did that we hit the Rewind button quite a bit. We're taking a lot of steps back and re-evaluating what exactly we're doing with it and being a whole lot less 'close'.
Yeah, it's all good.
I don’t know, I just don’t know. Brandy is saying that she can’t be in limbo about what we’re doing… I thought we knew, we’re figuring things out. She’s saying “broke up” and I am saying that we’re figuring things out. Almost as if we’re going back to before we were dating and re-discovering each otI don’t know, I just don’t know. Brandy is saying that she can’t be in limbo about what we’re doing… I thought we knew, we’re figuring things out. She’s saying “broke up” and I am saying that we’re figuring things out. Almost as if we’re going back to before we were dating and re-discovering each other. I still love her, but I want to get to know her. I need to get to know her again, to know a Brandy who loves God and is really following after Him. She wasn’t that when I got to know her and now she is, who is she without me, who am I without her?! We’ve both changed a lot in the last 5 months and I don’t think I know who we are now…
It scares me, I am honestly mortified that I did it again, that I screwed up something that amazing and was one of the ones that God let me choose or whatever. I am scared that I hit that weakest point and now it’s crumbling and turining to dust and there’s nothing I can do about it.
God, be God. You work this out because at this point I am realizing that You are the only one that knows what we need to and what Brandy and I should do. I love her, You are the only one that knows how much I do love her, but I think we need to not be done with it yet, we need to seek You and seek to know each other. Let us know, God, just let us both know.her. I still love her, but I want to get to know her. I <b>need</b> to get to know her again, to know a Brandy who loves God and is really following after Him. She wasn’t that when I got to know her and now she is, who is she without me, <i>who am I without her?!</i> We’ve both changed a lot in the last 5 months and I don’t think I know who we are now…
It scares me, I am honestly mortified that I did it again, that I screwed up something that amazing and was one of the ones that God let me choose or whatever. I am scared that I hit that weakest point and now it’s crumbling and turining to dust and there’s nothing I can do about it.
<i>God, be God. You work this out because at this point I am realizing that You are the only one that knows what we need to and what Brandy and I should do. I love her, You are the only one that knows how much I do love her, but I think we need to not be done with it yet, we need to seek You and seek to know each other. Let us know, God, just let us both know.</i>
Well, today I did something that I didn't think was going to happen for a long long time. Brandy and I are no longer 'together'.
Why? I don't know why, I really really don't. Things have just been wierd lately. I still love her and I still care for her intensly, but it's just seemed like things haven't been 'right' lately, almost like I have been dating my sister.
Anyhow, we're taking a break with no expectations <i>either</i> way, whether toward getting back together or ending it altogether. I do miss her already and I know I don't like this right now. I also know that it will be good in the long run, we're going to try to put a lot into building pur friendship, something that we hadn't done before we started dating. So we'll either have a stronger relationship or we'll still be close friends after it's all said and done. I just don't know and I think there's going to be some crying on my part real soon…
My WinAmp has a sense of humor… the song that it playing right now is about staying together with someone when your relationship becomes 'predictable' (that's not at all the problem, but still I think my computer has a sick sense of humor).
