January 2003

okay… just so nate is happy, I'll let you all know – I am still working at Dining Services at EUP, I have a different job – technically, but I basically do the same thing and get payed $3 more an hour and I'll be getting bennies in 2 more weeks.

soo… on to the fun stuff. i talked to carrie tonight and i miss her a ton. i don't know what i'm going to do when she gets back, i am literally (okay, maybe figuratively) aching to see her. we've been having some awesome conversations lately that are actually making our relationship <i>move</i> places… i have a plan, a time plan, when i want to say and *ahem* ask certain things of certain people and stuff… so yeah, and she's been awesome about really trying to get to know my heart, I've always thought that i knew her well, but i've found that i feel that i do, but that it's a tip of an iceburg…. that there's a ton to explore about her that i want to take my time learning, not because i don't want to know her completely, but that no matter how long i take it's going to take some time… so i might as well savor the experience…

the Bible study with Andy was good, it was at Matt's place – first of all, a very very nice place, huge, bigger than the place at Darrow that Greg or I had, but soooo much cheaper… like 560/month TOTAL! I think I want to live there at some point with someone if things work out as we've thought they might in the past… or whatever. But we talked about Romans 8 and that there is 'no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.' We are completely free and I don't have to worry… but I do have to get rid of that pesky pattern of submitting the the flesh over and over and over and over… i hate it and i want to be free!

<i>He climbed the high mountain,
He captured the enemy and seized the booty,
He handed it all out in gifts to the people.</i>

<font size="1">("He" is God, by the way.)</font>